A POT OF GREENS

I COOKED A POT OF GREEN FOR CHRISTMAS .
OMG EVERY SUNDAY SINCE, MY DAUGHTERS HAVE REQUESTED , I COOK THEM, ANOTHER POT OF GREENS.
I ASKED THEM, WHATS UP WITH THIS POT OF GREENS TRIP YOU TWO ARE ON?

JAKISHA SAID….
THEY ARE DELICIOUS , THE BEST YOU HAVE EVER COOKED.
YOU MUCH HAVE DONE SOMETHING DIFFERENT WHEN YOU COOK THEM .
BECAUSE THEY TASTE SO MUCH BETTER.

PRECIOUS SAID….
MOM THEY ARE THE BOMB …SMILING .
NOW THIS CHILD HATES TO EAT HER VEGGIES.

SO AT THERE REQUEST I HAVE BEEN COOKING A POT OF GREENS VERY SUNDAY MOTHER.

AS I THOUGHT ABOUT WHAT JAKISHA SAID .
I REALIZED SHE WAS CORRECT .
I HAD CHANGED THE WAY I COOKED THE POT OF GREENS.
I DID NOT USE HAM HOCKS.
I USED BACON ENDS.
THIS GAVE THE POT OF GREENS A HOLD NEW TASTE.
THAN I REMEMBER , BACON END ARE WHAT MY GRANNY USED MORE SO THAN HAM HOCKS .

I HAVE BEEN COOKING FOR ALONG TIME. AND WHAT I'M LEARNING IS SOMETIME YOU CAN CHANGE HOW YOU SEASON A DISH , THIS CHANGES THE TASTE ALL TOGETHER.
SO IN MY QUEST TO GET PRECIOUS TO EAT HER VEGGIES , I WILL TRY DIFFERENT WHYS TO COOK FOOD , WHEN SHE DOES NOT LIKE IT . SHE NEEDS TO EAT HER VEGGIES EVERY DAY.
NO BETTER WHY TO GET IT DONE
THAN TO COOK THEM TO HER LIKING .
WHY FIGHT WITH HER ABOUT IT WHEN I CAN JUST MAKE THEM TASTY TO HER .

THE MOST IMPORTANT LESSON IN THIS POT OF GREENS FOR ME IS PRACTICE MAKES PREFECT,
CHANGE IS GOOD.

BEST FRIEND WISH

I hope I never have to say goodbye
You are my best friend
I love you to the end
No matter what we do
I would like to stay in touch with you
You have been there with me throw the birth of all three
When I was married you road in the carriage with me
You are my best friend
When my granny past away
you where at my side everyday with kind words to help me throw
What would I have done without you
So when you said your moving away I screamed out don't play with me like this today
So before you go I just wanted to know

I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU

IN LOVE ALONE

What do I do when I am so in love with you
All I want is to be with you
To hold your hand , for you to be my man
To do all I can , to assure your happiness
To walk with you , to talk with you
I care for you , I want to share with you
I want to be kind to you , make sure things are find with you

Listen to my selfish cry for love
What about you
what do you want to do
Do you want to be free
Or is it just me “
It there another in your life
You have a selfish cry for

Still I don’t understand , look at me
What more can there be

So I sit here confused and alone
Hoping you call my phone
Coming correct not expecting me to accept
Anything you bring , because I'm living in a dream

THEY COME AND THEY GO

GOD IS GOOD . IN LIVING MY LIFE AS A FEMALE , I HAVE FOUND THAT AT TIMES PEOPLE HAVE COME IN MY LIFE FOR A MOMENT. IN THAT MOMENT, THEY CHANGED MY LIFE, WITH A FEW WORDS . SOME WORDS WERE SWEET. THEY MADE ME FEEL LIKE THE QUEEN I IM . SOME WORDS WERE DISRESPECTFUL, THEY HURT ME . SOME WORDS WERE HURTFUL YET TRUE . THEY MADE ME LOOK DEEP WITHIN MYSELF. SO TO ALL THAT HAS COME INTO MY LIFE FOR THAT MOMENT . THANK YOU . I SAY THIS BECAUSE FOR THAT MOMENT YOU GAVE ME OF YOUR LIFE , WITH YOUR WORDS OF SWEETNESS, WITH YOUR WORDS OF DISRESPECT , AN WITH YOUR WORDS TO HURT ME, YOU HAVE MADE ME STRONGER IN LIFE . I AM WOMEN , AN I STAND IN IT , EVEN WHEN I FALL OR MAKE A MISTAKE. I AM WOMEN STILL . TO THOSE WHO CARE ENOUGHT TO STAY FOR MORE THAN A MOMENT I FEEL I MUST SAY . PLEASE KNOW GOD IS STILL WORKING ON ME . SO KEEP BEING THE FRIEND YOU ARE WATCHING ME GROW WITH YOUR ON GOING WORDS OF LOVE , PEACE , KINDNESS, HONSTY, JOY AND HAPPYNESS. I LOVE YOU ALL . FOR NOT JUDGING ME OR COMPARING ME TO . YOU ARE A FRIEND WITH NO CONDITIONS . OUR LOVE AND FRIENDSHIP HAS STOOD THE TEST OF TIME . YOU BE BLESSED THREE TIMES FOR YOUR HEART OF GOLD . ALL YOU TOUCH IS GOLD . AS OF 10/27/07. I HAVE CHANGED MY LIFE . I WILL TAKE MY TIME WITH ALL I DO . I WILL NOT MOVE TOO FAST WITH THIS THING CALLED LIFE . ONE STEP AT A TIME . I NO LONGER HAVE A NEED TO PROVE MYSELF TO YOU AND YOU . I AM WOMEN . I HAVE GOOD AND BAD PRETTY AND UGLY I AM UP AND SOMETIMES DOWN . I KNOW WHO I AM I KNOW WHAT I WANT . SO TODAY I SAY AND MEAN IT IN MY HEART . I LET GO AND LET GOD . IT IS WHAT IT IS . I AM WHAT I AM JANICE . NO MORE NO LESS. LOVE ME OR LEAVE ME , BUT YOU WILL NOT MISTREAT ME , OR ATTEMP TO MAKE ME FEEL LESS THAN . WE ALL HAVE A CHOICE TO MOVE ON . O AND TO THOSE HATERS OUT THERE. DONT STOP HATING IT MAKES ME STRONGER IN LIFE . WITH OUT YOU I WOULDNT HAVE MADE THIS CHANGE TODAY. SO THANK YOU SO SO SO MUCH . IM BETTER TODAY THAN I WAS YESTERDAY. GOD BLESS YOU . I PRAY YOU ARE BETTER TO DAY THAN YESTERDAY AS WELL. LOL SEE WHAT HAPPENS WHEN I HAVE TIME TO THINK. LMAOAY

That Man

His skin so smooth ooowee
Love when he puts is soft hands on me
I get a chill omg the trill
He makes me so happy
To think of that day he will let me have my way and marry me
I don’t know what else to say
No other man makes me feel this way
His kiss, those sexy dark lips
The way he move his hips mmm
Than that dip, makes me scream
I don’t know what else to say I pray for the day he let me have my way and marry me
The way he stands as a man when I need a strong hand to keep in my place
Omg his voice, cant wait for is call
It makes me weak when he speaks my name
That black man
His claim to fame will be the day
I let him have his way
and become his wife

ME ME ME ..........I LOVE ME SOME ME

I LOVE ME SO MUCH, SOMETIMES I DON'T UNDERSTAND IT. I THINK MAYBE I LOVE ME TO MUCH.
I THAN ASK MYSELF HOW CAN THAT BE???????
I AM SUPPOSE TO LOVE ME? I AM SUPPOSE TO.
IF I LOVE MYSELF SO MUCH ,THAN ,MAY I LOVE ANOTHER?
WILL I BE ABLE TO HAVE A STABLE RELATIONSHIP WITH ANOTHER?
IS THERE ROOM TO LOVE ANOTHER?
WOW..
YOU SEE I FEEL LOVE IS UNCONDITIONAL.
TO LOVE ANOTHER WOULD MEANS NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, I WILL STILL LOVE ANOTHER.
BUT THE LOVE FOR MYSELF, WONT ALLOW THAT.
THE HURT
THE PAIN
THE DISAPPOINTMENT
THE LIES
YOU KNOW ALL THE THINGS THAT THE LOVE FOR ANOTHER CAN BRING

AND AT THAT MOMMENT I REALIZED THAT SELF LOVE IS THE REASON I AM ABLE TO LOVE ANOTHER UNCONDITIONALLY.
YOU SEE IN ALL THE HURT, PAIN , DISAPPOINTMENT AND THE OTHER THINGS THAT LOVE FOR ANOTHER CAN BRINGS.
YOU, IN SELF LOVE HAVE THE POWER YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND,
YOU MAY HAVE TO LOVE ANOTHER FROM A DISTANCE.

P.S
IN THE ABOVE BLOG THE WORD YOU IS IN REFERRANCE OF ME ME ME

The trip

OMG IT IS FRIDAY

I WOKE UP THIS MORNING NOT TO HAPPY.
I DON’T WANT TO COMPLAIN BECAUSE I AM BLESSED.
SO I ASK MYSELF OVER AND OVER AGAIN, WHATS WRONG WITH YOU? . I MEAN I'M A HAPPY PERSON WHO SEEMS TO BE AT PEACE IN THIS THING CALLED LIFE. WHY YOU TURNING INTO THIS BITTER PERSON, BANGING ON BREAKFAST. GIVING THE KIDS A HARD TIME. GOING OFF IN THE STORE BECAUSE I DON’T AGREE WITH A FIFTY CENT FEE FOR USING MY CREDIT CARD.
SO I PUT A FEW THINGS ON THE TABLE TO REVIEW , HOPING TO FIND MY ISSUE SO THAT I CAN RESOLVE IT, MY ISSUES

1. SINGLE
2.. SINGLE
3. SINGLE

WAIT ……..
DID I JUST WRITE SINGLE THREE TIMES (REREADING WHAT I WROTE)
YEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THAT’S WHAT I WROTE OMG WHAT THE HELL
I'M OK WITH BEING SINGLE, I HAVE BEEN SINGLE FOR OVER 8 YEARS
WHY IS THIS AN ISSUE FOR ME NOW .
HAS THIS BEEN AN ISSUE?
AN IF SO WHY HAVE I NOT ADDRESSED THIS ISSUE?
BEING SINGLE IS MY CHOICE .
OR IS LIKE THAT MAN SAID IN THAT MOVIE , WOMEN WHO SAY THIS JUST CANT FIND A MAN.
FIND I MAN WOW …
I'M NOT LOOKING FOR A MAN SO NAW…..THAT’S NOT IT.
LET ME SEE .
OH OK I SEE…… IT JUST HIT ME
ITS NOT THE MAN I DON’T HAVE
ITS WHAT THE MAN HAS TO OFFER THAT’S MY ISSUE
SEX . THE LACK OF SEX HAS ME TRIPPING
WHAT SHOULD I DO?

PICKING UP A HOBBY

Here I sit in a blank state of mind wanting to write a new blog,
I love to write, in my Jr high school 7Th grade year I won second place in a school writing contest held by the glassboro county school district. But some how some where I let that passion to hold my pen slip throw the cracks of my life. WOW!!!!!
By the age of twenty I was married with two children(NO TIME TO WRITE),
time to go to work,! the children need to eat and hubby income is not enough.
I have been working for twenty years. My first two children are grown...thank God, my last child is almost in her teens and I'm not working due to family issues, stress and just to tell you the truth I needed a fucking break. I felt like I was going to breakdown and be in Gusta Hawkins 5150.

Which brings me back to, here I sit in a blank wanting to write a new blog. I have nothing but time on my hands. I'm home all day, It's been almost one year now relaxing thinking getting my mind right.
It's time to get back in the swing of things, which I found not to be so easy. My job scearch has been unsuccessful so far. So in a quest to pass the time and not feel like a dead beat, I need a hobby, writing came to mind(i may be really good and can make some money at it ) so i picked up this blog with the help of my oldest child . But what do I write about I drew a blank.
Oh... I can write about why I'm here! How not working has giving time to clear my mind, which helped me get back to one of the things I love to do and had figured I had no time for. Now that I'm at it , writing, I feel good yet so dumb. I had time for this all along, I love it. Now I am thinking I love to take pictures, I'm going to buy me a camera. Omg there are so many things I love to do, and I'm going to do them no matter what.
As that man in the matrix said IF YOU DON'T MAKE TIME , YOU WILL NEVER HAVE TIME.


I have learned so much about myself in this last few months of not working .
One important thing, is when theres work and no play, you can become a very unhappy person.
Success is not in how much money you make, what kind of car you drive or where you live, for me it is more about how you feel about yourself in life .

the way its SUPPOSE to be

FRIENDSHIP! LOVE! MARRIAGE! SEX!

FRIENDSHIP
TAKES TIME TO GROW, TIME TO LEARN ANOTHERS WANTS NEED DREAMS AS WELL AS THERE PERSONALITY . TO ESTABLISH A UNDERSTANDING OF WHO THIS PERSON REALLY IS
LOVE
EMOTIONS BETWEEN FRIENDS. FEELS OF CARING SHARING GIVING DOING A LITTLE MORE THAN YOU WOULD ON THE NORM . FOR SOME IT MEANS A LOT MORE (THIS IS A BLOG I'M JUST GIVING A BRIEF DEFINITION ).
MARRIAGE
WHEN TWO COME TOGETHER AS ONE , AS "FRIENDS IN LOVE" TO FACE LIFE .
SEX
THE ACT BETWEEN TO FRIENDS IN LOVE.... THAT HAVE MARRIED .


AS A CHILD THIS IS THE ORDER A RELATIONSHIPS BETWEEN TWO WAS SUPPOSE TO GO.
HA
TODAY AT FORTY I FIND THIS IS NOT THE CASE. SEX IS SO CASUAL YOU CAN GET IT ONLINE IN A MATTER OF MINS
MARRIAGE PLEASE,
TOGETHER AS ONE PLEASE.
SEPARATED BANK ACCOUNTS , SEPARATE CARS , THE HOUSE IS THE SOLE PROPERTY OF ONE. LOVE OF SELF IS THE FOCUS. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO , WHAT ABOUT ME , WHAT CAN YOU DO FOR ME . FRIENDSHIP ......I'M NOT GOING TO EVEN GO THERE.

TELL ME HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THE RELATIONSHIP PROCESS TODAY